Self

I think this is the best I have ever described myself.

I never feel beautiful.

But when I'm just wearing a t-shirt and there's a boy on top of me,

that's when I'm ugliest.

I own too many white dresses and silver bracelets that

smash together while I walk. 

I like the sound they make, because I can't stand silence.

I'm the daughter of a feminist who stays out of my life.

I'm the daughter of a quiet man who stays out of my life;

I get A's and they don't care. 

I have an anxiety disorder,

I'm on birth control and take multivitamins.

I'm so weak that carrying my textbooks hurt, but I love them.

I want to be sickly thin with long hair and piercings.

Dreadlocks maybe?

No facial piercings, though. 

The stack of books beside my bed is getting taller.

I read too much and fall in love with every character:

(Right now I love Beatle who meets Destiny).

I don't like people touching me,

it stings and stays on my skin for hours. 

I give bad hugs.

I collect crystals and flowers.

My horoscope is always right,

and I want to believe in something. 

Reviews

[Málum]

That was a very intense poem. I felt a little strange ready it though, because it is so personal. But at the same time I can relate to much of it. Thank you:)

[Patrick Henry]

I'm surprised to not see my comment anymore on here. It was just recognizing that I found it to be beautifully honest and in regards to the pain felt..... a soft hug is what I would love to give you!! xoxo -Mark

[Clockwork]

This is one of the most introspective poems I have read on this site. You have a sense of who you are and what that means in the context of the world. I think it takes a lot of courage to be willing to look at oneself with honest eyes.

That said, you have a very open style. You compel your reader to listen with charm and earnestness. I really liked this poem quite a bit. Please never stop writing!

[Stammers]

But when I'm just wearing a t-shirt and there's a boy on top of me,
that's when I'm ugliest.

- how I long for this sense of shame.

On a serious note, you know; this is a lot better than any one here probably knows. It's charming, and its natural and candid confession is stark and very clever. You looked in a mirror and took notes, and whilst it seems too unsophisticated an approach to work, in this special case, you made everyone else look unsophisticated.

[P.S.Chance]

this is really good ... raw and unpretentious, vulnerable. Hang on to faith - things will get better.

[Twistedme]

Why does this poem hurt me...???

[tayla timpano]

you tell me :p

[Twistedme]

i dont even know......o_o

[GunMetal]

I find it difficult to write about myself. I must have rewritten my "About Me" section dozens of times. You paint yourself well in this. Don't ever stop trying to find yourself.

[Kyle]

This is utterly random, yet makes total sense. I can relate to everything too.

[Emrick]

What a nice girl with beautiful ambitions!.honestly speaking many boys like slim girls,i like slim girls too. its sad that you work hard in school but gets no credit for your hardwork from ur parents.its sad but easy wit them.maybe they r too busy for that n i know most students would wish to have parents like urs.
(I'm so weak that carrying my textbooks hurt - this line is cool.