The Reasons Why

Every time I hear your name it's like a stabbing in the heart

It's painful thinking of the time that we have been apart

I cry sometimes and miss you but remember all the things

That you would do that hurt me and all the pain that each would bring

You never knew the sleepless nights and silent tears that fell

You never realised all the days that were a living hell

I never said a word because you would not understand

I only tried when everything began to get out of hand

At least a hundred times I know you heard me saying 'stop'

Yet in a matter of minutes it seemed that you somehow forgot

I went along with everything until you crossed the line

So that time no, I cannot say that all of it was fine

Your plan was made so you slowly began to burn me like the sun

If I'd have stayed I dread to think the things I would have done

Only today I've let myself reveal what I never told

Before your eyes you see the words I never said unfold

I fought a battle everyday to forget each word you said

Now you return and still I swear you're messing with my head

So if you're leaving, walk away and I beg you, never return

Either way I could never go back or I will never learn

My life is not a door for you to walk through when you desire

You cannot create a world of memories and then destroy it with fire

Every sentence you've ever spoken, is poisoned now with fear

I see them all as lies, I don't know which words were sincere

I pick apart your actions and try to fit them like a puzzle

My thoughts are tangled together and so I leave them in their muddle

It's hard to let you go with every memory that remains

I start to fear you'll never leave and we'll always be the same

Somewhere inside I knew that we were bound to end this way

Nothing would have saved us from what we had to face that day

Yet still I cannot understand how you could forgot me so fast

If not in love, then in friendship, you told me that we would last

So please tell me what happened in your mind that very day

From the declaration of love you made to being with her that way?

I understand that you were only trying to forget

Though I do not see how another girl isn't something you regret

Don't you question why I can't believe your love was true

If you were in love then that is something you would never do

You add my name to the list of girls who never understood

And you live your life in misery believing that none of us ever could

Now you're gone, I clearly see what I should have noticed before

You never stay long anywhere and you're always wanting more

The nights of endless speaking are now starting to fade away

Though the minutes feel like hours and it's like a year each day

Sundays are the hardest so I keep busy every week

I go out and laugh with the friends I have and of you I never speak

It's not just me you've hurt and now she's telling me the same things

Neither of us could ever have known what being with you would bring

I'm sorry if I couldn't give you everything you dreamed

I'm sorry I was insecure and if things I said were mean

I must have not been good enough and walked a step behind

Otherwise you never would have denied that you were mine

I never mentioned another boy because I knew just how you'd feel

I did that so you'd never doubt my love for you was real

Flirting is always something you will be a master at

You were wrong if you ever believed that I could live with that

You've left me with no trust and now no words can I believe

I understand what people meant when they told me I should leave

I waited for an eternity for you to say none of this was true

Though I miss it, I understand now that I can never go back to you

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[Heather]

THIS. Describes my life entirely. I love this, wonderful job.