words

I feel sick inside

with words I've swallowed down

all these feelings

fighting to get out.

My pain was swallowed

once, a long, long time ago.

No one noticed

and no one cared, so it has always stayed there.

My anger went after pain,

it escapes sometimes,

 but I always just bite it back.

No one wants to hear my voice

and so it's there to stay.

All my feelings

depression, fear, love...

they just hide in the corners 

of my mind

where they cannot escape.

They don't want to hide

in the place with all my pain.

To be erased

to disappear

it'd be easier if they just did.

I don't want to feel

when no one's there to care.