Please Not Again

I recently lost a 2nd friend due to a drunk driving accident. He was hit by a drunk driver crossing the street. This is my reaction to news and thinking not again.

my hands start shaking
my knees go weak

i feel dread pool in my stomach
and i want to scream

not again i think
not to me

this can't be happenning
it must be just a dream

pinching my self
silently praying that i'm asleep

hoping desperately that not another person I love
is lost forever

praying that drinking and driving

hasn't stolen another friend from me

going to the hospital waiting room
seeing tears everywhere i look

and realizing that my worst nightmare has come true