Never Had To Lie

This is just something I wrote recently. It randomly came into my mind and it wouldn't leave, so I wrote it down. This is the product of my strange mind :)

I never had to lie to myself
But this is a special case.
I know you were only with me
Because you enjoyed the chase.

I wish I'd never met you,
Because then I wouldn't cry.
I obviously never meant that much to you,
So my tears, I need to dry.

You're a b*****d, an a*****e,
And everything in between.
But I love you and I realized
That you were almost always in my dreams.

How could I have been so stupid
As to let you in?
I knew the kind of guy you were.
And if I were a Christian,
I'd say you were a sin.

Now, I don't usually lie to myself,
But this is a special case.
I miss being around you,
But I'm f*****g sick of your face.

Oh who am I kidding?
No matter what we went through,
No matter the day,
I know I'll always love you,
And that love will never go away.

They warned me against you,
But I took the chance.
I knew you'd ruin me,
But you had me at first glance.

I never had to lie to myself.
I never had to tell myself
You would be back someday.
But this is a special case,
Because those thoughts, those lies,
Are what gets me through the day.

Author's Note

I'm sorry if it's a little choppy or seems like certain lines don't fit. This is unedited and raw, and it's just how I felt this morning.

Reviews

[stars are far]

This is so amazing.. i can relate to this..except for the first 2 lines from the 3rd stanza.other than that..i think its me..well done .. or allow me to say you captured such pain very well, and you described it amazingly..

keep up the good work :)

[untitledramblings]

You have no idea how much that means to me :) thank you for your review. And I will definitely be writing more poems. I think I like them lol

[stars are far]

hehe..yes they express the idea in a more direct way than storys or whatever..
and you are good.. :) develop your self more and you be great writer :)

[untitledramblings]

Thanks so much :)

[Lala]

I think the fact some lines seem to not fit makes it more real and therefore more beautiful. Even though the topic isn't a happy one, I still enjoyed reading your pure emotions because you wrote it in such a way I actually understood and could relate to them :).

[untitledramblings]

Your review just made my day :) I almost never white poems so this is the first one I've written in a long time. But thank you, I'm so glad you enjoyed it.

[Chris Micha]

Raw emotion is beauty. I've been where you are and I hope it gets better!

[untitledramblings]

Thank you so much :) same to you