Sick of This

Do you shiver when you see me coming,
A smile on my face as I blink away the pain
Push the needle deep within my vein
And stand next to you clutching to a blade?

Do you smile when you see me stumble
Fall on broken glass and over hot coals,
Crawl my way though the darkened room
For a place to rest me head?

Do you tremble when you hear me yell,
My muscles twitching hard against my velvet skin,
And as I rip though the flesh from within,
I fight my urge to slap my hand onto your face?

Do you like playing with your porcelain dolls,
Your f*****g life's a f*****g lie,
And do you think that arrogance would save your sin
As I expose the stupid fake within.

Smile all you wish, your love is just like glass,
Fragile and plain, without a drop of class.
Does it hurt to look in his eyes and know
You conjured up the strength to let me go.

I'm glad you found the one to complete your half,
I would be happier if he sucked your face someplace else.
Because with all due respect, darling one
I'm not the only one with this problem.

You changed so f*****g much, and that's my issue here,
You used to love to spend some time together,
Now your heart is ice, the vampire within,
Son of a b***h, he changed my sunny butterfly.

I'm venting and I'm cursing and I'm punching walls,
Swallowing the words, so I don't spit them up
Into those gorgeous eyes, both chocolate and blood,
And I should know the road I walk alone.

Have no fear, not that you would.
I found someone else to soothe my soul,
She knows what she does, and just what I am,
And flirts like nothing else could harm her.

An angel so delightful and strong, my dear blonde
Walks in front of me then turns to watch me watch her,
And I would hold her tighter than I already do,
But I wouldn't f*****g insult you that way.

Author's Note

Venting.

Reviews

[XxLovexLuckyxX]

Very much venting...You always put so much emotion into your writing. I love it. This is my all time favorite that i've ever read. :)

[just is]

Ouch! This is raw emotion at it's finest
I really like this kind of like saying
I'd die for you and fight for you monologe
You're dyingly mad but as well as moved
Great emotional write here.

[FoolsGold23]

Painful, but hey, all vents lead somewhere.
Glad you got it out, twas painful to read, but hey,
healing isn't meant to be idyllic.
Nice work.

[Jessica M.]

"Smile all you wish, your love is just like glass,
Fragile and plain, without a drop of class. "
Favorite lines of the poem.
Venting is a great release,
I hope you feel better. :/