Here We Go Again

Hits me like a locomotive

Something jolts like 

"Oh,"

And it's just remembering 

Dear, 

It's just 

Remembering 

Suddenly

Remembering 

Paves me over

Dizzying bulldozer

It makes 

      My mouth 

                  Go dry 

I am swallowed by 

Memories

And my mind is orbiting the earth 

Seeing the stars...

I am 

Frozen 

Gazing about 

Who you are

Who you are

And who 

I know you're going to be 

You know how the light 

Pools in from the window

And plays shamelessly

With all the glass in a room?

Leaves it's fingerprints all over the chandelier?

Trails across the tables and the chairs?

To me

That's the way you illuminate

Unable to leave someone

Untouched by your you-ness

Intangibly 

And oddly, 

I'm here wondering 

Why the strings of your voice 

Are always slung over my shoulder?

Why the thought of your mind 

Makes me feel bolder

And yet more feeble..

Frail, 

I'm at the bottom of a hill

Everything is spinning

Everything is still and pale

And I'm whispering 

"G-d, 

Please, 

Help him...

Oh G-d, 

Please..." 

And I wonder if someday, 

You'll feel Him, 

In some way,

I wonder if I'm making any sense

Anyway.