I Just Need To Miss You For A While

3 am July 7, 2018, Joseph, I miss you, I love you, I don't want to do this without you...I remember that night you texted me back "do what?" I said "everything.." You said "then don't, I'm right here"

I think the the tears fall because

 I miss you

Because I want us both to be okay

Becuase I wish I had more faith

Like you have faith

And my silent scream

Is a bitter call

For God to wrap His love around me

Around you too

To make us whole

But though I know

One day, we'll move on without

Lives

ANd we will be happy, 

Yes, we'll be fine,

But 

I don't know if you,

Well, at least if I,

Will ever be whole again

Because a part of me 

Is encased in the folds of your being

In your laugh

Your eyes gleaming

And before I met you

I wasn't whole to begin with

So for those few months we knew one another

So intimate

Some part of me

Was whole

Your crazy,

Joseph, baby,

Your crazy,

Made me feel...

Normal

And I think that's why the tears fall

For I miss the soft,

And bright,

And beautiful

So now, at this pitiful hour,

I write you this poem, this letter

And knowing I can reach you 

Makes me feel a little better...

I think, 

Joseph, I think

I just need to miss you for a while...