The Ocean That My Mind Can Be

Sometimes my mind is as beautiful as an ocean, sometimes just as terrifying.

This beautiful

That my mind is

Often

The most refreshing that I can 

Swim in

Gliding through

Reality

In an aquarium 

That rails with powdery drops

Of kaleidoscope colored beauty 

Flexing closed

As I drop

Heavy rum puts me to sleep

Drops me deep down

And I echo eerily into the ruins

Into this relic of an old woman

In my mind,

This ocean,

That flows into infinity

It Grasps hands with the river of insanity

And rushes silently 

Chokes under the caves

That within I've stored 

My everything

And then, falls gracefully,

Oh so gracefully,

In silvery strands into 

The bowels of my soul

It is so easy to

Much too easy to

Slip silently 

Into the quiet deep

This incubated blue 

That is ever expanding

It is so easy to

Much too easy to

Wander and wade

And never

Come

Out

Sometimes

It's terrifying 

When I want to come out

When I want 

To come 

Out

And when I begin to find it

Hard to breathe

To breathe

 To breathe

To breathe

I drown sometimes

In the ocean

 That my mind can be

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

I love the sea. I suicided boarded three Winter storms in Monterey. To move and roll with the waves. Utopia. The sea make us feel very small. I enjoyed your words and thoughts. I live in Michigan now. I do miss the sea. Thank you for sharing the amazing poetry.
Coyote

[Healing Star]

I like to say - I've lost my mind - shhhh don't let on where I am - He's over there, Give me a few moments peace. Going back to the Ocean from the Mountains - I'll be skiing in two days and on Monday I'll be able to go to the beach in Florida. The last time in the Caribbean a year and a half ago I wrote this and was singing it in the water as I floated in the pinch me this water cannot be this beautiful - Hold Me, Hold Me, Grandmama Sea - Hold Me ... Hold me, Hold Me - Grandmama Sea Hold Me. I pray she'll quiet my mind and her sounds on the shore will calm me to my core, and we'll eat good foods as we can do farmer markets in winter there, but I'll miss skiing until March, hopefully we'll get some late storms and I'll have some wonderful powder to ride in March. And in May we'll be in Michigan on the farm - the sweet Air and the water and the trees. It's a blessing to lose our minds once in a while.

[R.E.K.]

Did you write this? I am absolutely blown away by it....is this a response or something you wrote? Please tell me, for i am drunk over its beauty.

[Healing Star]

This is my response to you, and it contains several things that I wrote, I really am going to Florida leaving tomorrow from Utah - where I've lived for 14 years - I was at St Thomas and St John a year and a half ago, and wrote that song floating in GrandMama Sea. Still water is Femine energy and moving water - rivers and rain is Masculine Energy - just learned that from a healer I'm beginning to work with. Our work will move into using the medicine from the Amazon - but I've got work to do - doing a Yeast cleanse for Candida - and I have to get off Sugar and HF corn syrup - eat well - and do work to open up an emotional block he said - something from when I was about 10. One of the things is to go under water and scream as hard as I can, come out relax and cool down, and then do it again, do the same thing one more time. another is making a 100 shovel fulls of sand hill and then take a bat and scream and hit it - somewhere in the process of the 100 hits he said I'll have an emotional event - and it could come in many ways - and I need to have someone there with me. This block is at the root of why I went to him, to help me with my bi-polar which is getting crazier and crazier in the last few years - really didn't know I had it before that. Blessings - this is my Response for your Write - I'm gonna miss skiing here until March - but the 70 degree temps will help me through it. Blessings - it's wonderful to get drunk on beauty - just the opposite of what alchohol does - and he also reminded me the rum I drink once in a while is like inter-venous sugar - it's made from sugar cane = and any alcohol is sugar. I'll just have to keep it to only green