One Day I Will Love My Body

How I came to love, well, one day I'll love, my body.

Here is my body

God gave me a temple

Housing my mind 

For my soul, it's a vessel

And this is the story of

How I came to love,

Though I still don't love, 

My body

Woke up one day 

When I was young

Lost in the flesh 

That I'd become

Feeling trapped in my skin

Caged in cause

I'd forgotten that it held

 My pumping blood

Closed my mouth

 To the chorus of lunch

Stuffed my cheeks 

With chocolate, pizza crusts

Sold my soul by showing 

All the first men my form

And I become poorer still, I'm poor

Will I ever grow into my stomach?

Will I ever respect all my lines?

Will I ever stop displaying flaws?

Pinching, pulling?

Will I ever feel perfectly mine?

And when will I realize 

That outdoors is inside?

A beautiful room 

To keep locked for true one?

He who will know

There's a soul in my eyes

And because of that soul

My body's now divine

And 

My body

My body

My body

Deserves to be loved

And I know that I hurt you

I'm sorry

And I let you be watched and be touched 

In ways that degraded

All of your sacred

But Enough.

Enough of the pills and makeup

I will love you

 My body

 Someday

Give to you starting in little ways

Slow the way that I breathe

 Deep today

So that you can receive 

All the fresh and the clean

I've denied you

All the things that I let come inside you

Please forgive me 

My body

Holy, holy 

Let this be known see

Is all of these valleys and mountains 

Bones ride

And treasure, treasure 

All of this weathered

That are the scars and the wrinkles

Be kind

Take care of me 

And you will see

All of the bounty I hold

But I'm merely skin and bone

So don't see me as the whole

Don't cut me or stretch me or fold

All of the cells that protect you 

And hold you

All of my helixes stringing your life

And here is my body

God gave me a temple

Housing my mind 

For my soul, it's a vessel

And this was the story of

How I came to love,

Though I still don't love, 

My body

One day I will love

And thank God above

For this gift

For this home

For this poem 

My body

Reviews

[PhiaKenn1943]

As someone who suffers from BDD, this poem really hit home for me. I almost cried reading it the very first time. It's expression. The feeling of being trapped. It conveyed emotions that I myself can't express. Beautiful