Sickness and Depression.... the darkness.

I just can't shift the darkness

it's like a dark evil presence

over me and near me constantly.

Consuming me whole at times.

I did manage to breathe the odd time

 and be me.

Then it descends again. 

Making me feel morbid, depressed,

tearful and lonely and suicidal other times.

I get where I want to push people away

and be mean. To shun and keep them off me.

How sad, when your own mind

turns against you.

And makes you suffer in such

dire ways.

It's like being killed from the inside

slowly. All done by own inner thoughts

and emotions.

Trying so hard to let the light inside me

again. Just this time is a bit harder

than the rest.

Just wanted others to know they are

far from alone with this sickness of

depression and darkness.

Reviews

[R.J Calzonetti (Siniste..]

Well done with the descriptions, similes, and metaphors. I'm glad you haven't given up hope, like so many people do. It makes me feel better to hear I'm not alone, and I'm sure you could find dozens upon dozens on this site who feel the same. Being strong enough to speak about it shows me you'll win this fight eventually. It's so freaking hard to deal with, but at least you can carry that weight with some help from others you can lean on. Thanks for sharing this great poem!

[Onlyme]

I have come along way in mylife tragic life R.J. to give up now. And iam stubborn. As well as I know we are not alone. Just when you feel so low its hard to remember that fact. Bless you for caring to write Dawn.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

it's tough when we have to struggle so hard to get those short breaths of happiness in...
j.

[gram linski]

I feel your pain, Dawn, no matter how much you fight, there is never a perfect day, just different degrees on a spectrum of fluidity, you uplifted my sorry drunken soul quite a few times, you are a f*****g star, other people respect who you are, believe me, hugs fae me.

[Onlyme]

Exactly Gram, I do try to be upbeat and grateful for what I do have. But just sometimes everything get to me. And it drags me down again. Thanks for understand Gram. hugs. Dawn.

[gram linski]

Know what you should do? listen to some Ska Ska Ska,, you might not like the sound but the skank will ease yer soul, who doesn't love a good skank, most of my exes, lol