She is waiting on a miracle

She is waiting on a miracle

that is never going to come alone.

She wakes up every day

thinking this is it

her cats might be dead

in the living room.

Even before she sees her

p***y cat

she is thinking that.

She knows in her own heart.

the time is here to put her

to sleep.

Due to old age,

ill health and kidney disease

but she just cannot

bring herself

to do the dirty deed.

She takes her little one to the vet

every week

ans they check the cat

to see that she is not in pain.

And she is alright.

But she still will not.

Let the little one rest now.

But who am I to judge her.

I look into the little cat's eyes.

And I know in my own heart.

The cat is telling me

with her big yellow eyes and heart.

She has had enough.

I tell her,  my friend.

And she knows herself

it's time to let her go

but she is waiting on

that miracle that is never

going to come.

The odds are stacked

against her.

And she is the only one

who just come to terms

with it all.

ps Thinking of you little soul. I hope you find the peace you so badly want.
Real soon. I try to tell her, but she is not listening or hearing. She loves
you so much. I understand that and see that. And being without you breaks

heart even more.