Just Thoughts. Floating In My Head

It's like starting all over again

getting to know you.

Even though,  I have known you

for years and years.

A very long time indeed.

Cancer evaded our lives and took

a whole chunk of it.

And made us,

strangers to a

strong degree.

Due to all the turmoil,

upset and treatments.

Let alone the drama

tears, anger, frustrations

moods, grief caused us both.

It does not just affect the patient but
also loved one around

them.

And even when you get

the supposedly good new.

Consultant says "he will never

say its gone forever. As anytime

I can come back".

In the back of your mind,

it does play on it.

And the after-effects

of the treatment linger.

some can linger on for years.

And some people don't

recover fully to their

old self.

Before this disease

came into their lives.

It really does leave a mark

an imprint on you.

And makes you see life

in a different way.

As you see,

how fragile living is

and being a simple human being too.

We all know life is delicate even
before something bad happened.

Everyone does.

But when something.

Life change occurs.

Like a bad road accident,

someone close dying,

cancer, whatever

it really makes

you stop and think,

take note and ponder.

And evaluate

your existence

in general.

I remember as a child wanting

to grow older quicker

and be in my 2Os so I could do stuff.

I could not do as a child.

And then when 20.

Wanted to be older again.

Now older and regretting my chooses

and life in general

at times.

I think no way.

Would I want to be young again?

In this fucked up world

that it's now.

I rather just be me now.

How ironic and true.

I guess iam saying for me

anyway. I did the best I could

in mylife so far. And that is

all we can do.

Live life enjoy it best we can.

And saviour the golden moments

and cherish loved ones and great

times when they happen along the

way.

As when your time comes

to leave this earth.

That is it, folks.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

You are right dear Dawn. My brother defeated cancer for the third time. He learn to enjoy his life and slow down.
"As when your time comes
to leave this earth.
That is it, folks."
The above lines are true. When death is near. Game over. Thank you my friend for sharing the amazing poetry.
Coyote

[Onlyme]

Thanks Coyote, all we can do is enjoy the moment we have in life. Dawn.

[Coyote Poetry]

I agree Dawn and you are welcome my friend.

[Chris Shaw]

There's nothing like a life threatening illness to make you appreciate the present and live it Dawn. It's 14years since my diagnosis. I don't focus on it, I have now put it to the back of my mind. I lost friends along the way. I live for them. Your lines, I understand and also the effects illness has on loved ones.

Chris

[gram linski]

Very true, no matter how s**t you're life is, there is always some one worse off than you, carp deim

[John Alexander McFadyen]

An epic piece that focuses the readers mind on the reality when tragedy strikes and everyone is so helpless and in the hands of the doctors who often appear insensitive and detached.

[Onlyme]

Cheers John, partly that but also other family members who don't understand or relate and think it's just a bad case of flu and nothing more. As they sit back and just complain and chat about their own manic lives they live in general. As you suffer in silence together alone.

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Very sad but sometimes people don't know what to do or say as they feel powerless. So they ignore it, talk over it.Talk round it.

[Onlyme]

That is so very true, John. Excellent point. I do agree.