Inner turmoil's & other external Upsets.

A Story by Onlyme

How to overcome hopefully..

We all have our inner turmoil's and other problems that affects us.

And maybe also at times pushes us to the edge of wanting to end it all.
I know I have been there a few times in my life of late. More so.

To where you are actually questioning your own thoughts and meaning

of your own life and existence. I think everyone in life. Comes to that

point at some point in their own life too.

What keeps me going, is I think to myself, I have last this amount of time on earth.

And overcome so much beside. So this is nothing. If I look at the bigger picture of my

own personal life story. And I am also too stubborn and want to live and be happy

before I die and leave this earth.

I can really understand why some people just have had enough and want to call it quits.
As they have endured so much. And are worn out and tired. As I too have felt that.

But then that little flame inside me thinks. F**k it. NO f*****g way. As life changes

from one minute to the next. You never know what is around the corner.

I do also understand it's not easy to see the light in dark times. And when all you want

to do is finish it. Thinking it will end and I will be at peace. That is what your thinking.

But reality is. You have no idea. And when gone it's the final act and you breath no more.

And don't see your family or friends every again. And what you did does affect them for the rest of their living life too. Outwith the shock of what you did and why? They feel guilty, useless and dumbfounded by you doing it, the final act of self elimination.

I can understand someone homeless, destitute, alone feeling that way too. But what must help keep them going is hopefully one day. Their life will turn around again. And if they decided to give up now. That chance would never come for them.

It like someone with a drug problem. If they gave in. They never give themself the chance to get better and live life full again. And so on.

No i don't have all the answer to living live. I am just saying I do understand and I do relate. And want others to know. They are far from alone. Other do feel it too.

It's a subject no spoken about. And it needs to be spoken about to safe life's. Not help ended them.

Anything that help you in the darkest bleak hour of wanting to kill yourself. But stop you. And you live is a good thing not that.

Add to this anything that helps you...As it could help someone else. I don't mean. take drugs, get drunk stupid things. Good suggestions that actually help.

Like reaching out to a friend. To talk to.

Go online and talk to someone who understands in a group.

Write your emotions down on papers gets them out.

Going for a walk. To get physical activity to help you forget.

Go to the gym.

Take your dog for a walk.

Pet your cat.

Go to sleep.

Have a bath, shower.

Go swimming.

Something that makes you feel better. Not worse is the point.

So you stop think and do nothing that ends you forever.