False Beliefs

Paranoia to me.

kicks in, when I am

under, a lot of stress

and feeling, really anxious

and worried, to say the least.

I sense, the doom of darkness

taking me over. And my blood

is pumping faster, than the speed

of light, it feels to me.

I am sweaty, hot and bothered.

Talking faster and breathless, sometimes.

It's like my brain is on overdrive. And I

just can't keep up with it. In any other way.

Crying, weeping buckets of tears.

Aches and pains all over my body.

I just can't sit still and other times. I just

want to hide away. And console me

alone. Thinking no one cares if I live or

die. Also get "the flight or fight reaction".

To where I just want to take off and never

be seen again.

And a movie -screen of old hurts and sufferings,

flash past, inside my mind's eye. Adding to my

heartache and inner misery.

And makes me think.  I am a bad person.

I guess, I am writing this, as I don't want

anyone else to think they are alone in this
suffering. As others do relate to this

horrible emotion. And what goes

on inside your mind too.

You just can't help be this way.

And it makes you feel bad. Because

you do wish to not be the way you are.

But the reality is we are all but human.

Give yourself a break. And be nice to you.

Reviews

[Rye]

WOW!! SO emotional, I could feel every word. This is tugging, love your first stanza

[Onlyme]

Thanks sweetheart.