Closed Off...

Sitting at the window

looking outside

Seeing the world

pass me by.

Everyone with a purpose

a reason to live

and enjoy life.

Smiling, going places.

Coming and going.

Young lovers holding hands

kissing and embracing.

Children laughing and joking.

Old people.

With shopping trollies

filled to the brim with goodies.

Going home.

Sat here alone.

In a dark

unlit room.

Feeling afraid,

and ever so lonely.

Scared of my own shadow

and the outside world

before me

via this window pane

of thin glass.

I am isolated, timid

and rejected by my own worth

and self-esteem.

No one comes knocking

no one cares.

Even I have shunned me.

Reviews

[Ardra]

That's the worst thing we do ...
I think those who care will reach out...and keep us company but if we shut out the world it can really turn out to be difficult to cope up...

The more we keep in touch and try to get us out of the darkness would help... I think ..that's the better way..... or else we would just fade away and no one will notice...

((Hugs))

[Onlyme]

Exactly Ardra, feel as thou life is fading. For us both. And iam drowning with him due to his cancer and troubles. And I am having trouble staying afloat myself in general. Thank you for caring Ardra. Bless you for your kindness.

[Ardra]

Mmmm pls. Feel free to talk whenever u need....
And stay strong.... I know it's easy to say... but we have to keep strong or else who will be there to support him when he needs you..

[Onlyme]

Feel a bit better. Doctor was pleased with him. And no feeding tube. And home again. Just make sure he eats and does his meds and any problems. Hospital to talk to him. He seems better and I feel better. Thanks Ardra for caring. you are a beautiful soul. hugs Dawn.

[Julie McCarthy (juliesp..]

Dawn so glad u came home with good news at least

[Richard M]

Dearest Dawn, Never alone and I do care. Am thinking of you both. Thank you for sharing (((HUGS))) xx

[Onlyme]

I am okay Richard and so is he. He didn't need the feeding tube and he is home. Thanks for caring. Write to you soon. Okay. Dawn.

[Richard M]

That's the fine sweetie, just take care. And thank you

[augustus]

Chin up! The mere fact you've dared to write such a dismal poem means that you do care for those living in darkness. The sun is out and it's warm enough to go naked in my garden. What could be better?

[Onlyme]

augustus you made me smile. Bless you.

[Wild Rose]

Hello Dawn
I am sitting here looking out on a sky filled with grey clouds just a little bit of welcome shine
Out back I have hung some washing - Pegged on with extra pegs
Twisting about flapping 360 degrees in the gale force wind
I am looking out
For a delivery van he will be the first visitor this week - probably the last
He is to deliver a folding wheel chair for my wife
His van has just gone down the road

Bye for now Take care

[Onlyme]

Hi Pete, Hope you and your wife are okay. And you got the wheel chair. Thinking of you both. Dawn.

[Wild Rose]

No wheel chair > Unexpected delay by the carrier - think the road closed due to a fatal crash >> Tomorrow
Send me a mail if you feel the need > will do my best to contact
Pete

[Onlyme]

Sorry to hear about the wheelchair hopefully it will come soon. Iam okay thanks Pete. Thanks for caring. Hope you and wife are okay also. Drop me line if you want a chat also anytime. Dawn.

[Lydia Shutter]

What a terribly sad write this is. If you are really feeling this way, please know there are people who care. There are those who will make you see life can be better. You have expressed your emotions well in this poem, but they are concerning. Lydi**

[Onlyme]

Thank you Lydia for writing to me. Bless your kindness Dawn.

[Julie McCarthy (juliesp..]

Dawn I pray from here in my heart right now across the miles for God and his angels to comfort you in spirit soul mind body I trust He will do this now I feel your pain despairs and loneliness xxx please take care of yourself you are worn out I know xx bless u

[Onlyme]

Thanks Julie, Got hospital today. To find out if he is getting nose tube to feed. As losing weight. He will refuse it. I am so stressed out with it all. Worried sick.

[Julie McCarthy (juliespenhere)]

Sorry u both going through this

[Onlyme]

Thanks Julie, He is home. Doctor is happy with him. And gave him more meds and pain killers and protein drinks. Feel relived and better as does he.