hamster wheel

Feeling dispair,

sadness,

hurt and tears

of my rivers

at mylife.

The constant strain

of it all,

each and everyday.

To keep my soul and heart

let alone mind

above

insanity.

Is a big effort

to say the least.

To never lose myself

and who I am.

when each

new day

is hell on earth

to cope with

and plant

a fake smile

to pretend

all is jolly

with me.

I actually hate

mylife and what

it has become

over the years.

I actually wish

this was over

sometimes.

And I was born

someone else.

Not me.

Even thou,

i am an okay

person.

But fucked up

due to others.

And my past

and present

with others.

Im the hamster

on the wheel

f*****g going

nuts and stuck

in a constant

trauma state

most days

on the earth.

Fighting a

losing battle

it feels to me.

So wearys

so tired

so feed up

so down........

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Dear Dawn. Hard to do, change to what you wanted to be. Last few months been working hard on my writing. Got published and I have found fellow writers with same goal. Sometime we must stop and re-organize. I hope you are doing okay. Thank you for sharing your amazing words and your thoughts. I feel like a hamster too.
Coyote