Rubber ball..not working..

Oh the roller coaster of life

why the hell is this ride

so bad?

Up and down.

Around again....

here where we go again.

and again.

Never ending cycle of stress

anxiety and bullshit.

I feel  myself trying so hard

to be postive let alone to be

happy. But failing miserably

even everything I write is

doom and gloom.

Where has the happy me gone.

I miss myself. Being upbeat

and carefree.

Even the part of me who tries

to help

others like myselfs.

Who suffer

hardtimes and deal with depression

and anxiety. Let alone have been

abused in the past sexually, mentally,

physically on top.

The older I am getting the harder

I am really starting to feel the toll

of all of late.

I just can't bounce back from it this time

Like a rubber ball.

I am only human also.

Reviews

[Flowers of Eternity]

Dawn, I may not know what your going through but we support you. Know that you are not alone and we appreciate you. I know your having a touch time but I hope you will go back to your happy self.. In time, I know you will..
Thank you so much for sharing this!

[Onlyme]

Thankyou sweetheart, i am okay hubby got cancer of throat and it stressful at times and all gets to me as well as him. Trying to say upbeat but fall at times. Thank you for caring. hugs Dawn

[Flowers of Eternity]

I see, that is a tough time..
I hope he will get well soon.
And I hope the both of you can find the light in the middle of your darkest time.

[Onlyme]

Cheers sweetheart, trying to just take each new day as it comes. Dawn.

[Flowers of Eternity]

Yes, that's correct