Frustration & Anger at......helpless.

Frustration & Anger

of having Cancer.

Not being able to

control your

own destiny

Feeling vulnerable

and

now useless and

scared at how your

life will turn out

These qualities you

hate the most.

Holding on to old ways

of how you were.

Before you became ill.

Grasping at straws so

to speak, wishing you

where whole again.

Angry that you are ill

with a wicked disease.

Everyone around you

thinking they understand

how you feel.

When actually they really

have no clue fully how

it affects you.

As it's not happening

to them.

Your mind is constantly

working overtime

and you can't sleep

or eat properly.

Your moods are up and down.

Every day you are in pain

and emotionally you are

a wreck also.

The hospital staff is nice

and considerate. Your family

tries to understand but truthfully

they don't grasp it totally. And

you feel so alone and lonely

fighting this Cancer.

24/7 it's with you a

companion

all the time

on your back

taking you bit by bit.

Even during treatment,

it's a constant demon taught you.

It's awful to see you suffer

but I am lost also in trying

to help and support

you.

I do try my best at times.

It affects me too.