Reaching Out.....

Finding hope in the dark is not easy

when trauma and hurt and anxiety

and stress takes hold. And you can not

shake it or break it. 

Let alone the overwhelming numbness

that takes over your body at times.

As your emotions shut down like a

safety value. Has been switched to off.

You go on auto-pilot. Just to survive

another day.

Or else you put on the false mask

of let's be happy.

 And kid yourself and

everyone else around you. That

everything is

wonderful and great. When reality is

you are falling to pieces.

The truth is you have to be honest with yourself.

And admit you need help. And seek it out.

I mean proper organisation and support groups

that deal and aid and help with your type of suffering

and pain and upset.

Where it be sexual abuse, mental abuse,

drink, drugs, self-harm whatever.

And learn to express  yourself in a more postive way

like poetry or stories and let go of hiding behind

a wall inside your mind and heart. As all it's

doing is hurt you more and making you suffer

each and every new day.

You have to learn to like and eventually love yourself.

And know your own self-worth.

The road is not easy from recovery and healing.

 But it worth it believe me. From one who has been

their and done it in the past herself.