I Failed You.....

Failure...

I am just so devastated

and broken hearted

at my hubbies

diagnoses

of cancer.

I just can't

stop crying

and my anxiety

is playing

 me up badly.

Along with my i.b.s

and depression.

 

I just wish

I could cope

with all this pressure

and stress.

Let alone

failing him

as a human being

by being so weak

and so softhearted

I feel

so guilty

and a

big let down

to him

for being  so useless

and not  being

fit at all

to help him

properly.

I am going around

in circles

in life and in

my own mind and heart.

I have let us both down

but more some him.

Reviews

[Neville]

Your first two stanza's read and ring absolutely true.. It sounds as though you are experiencing and displaying perfectly normal and under the circumstances, natural emotions.. Anger, shock, denial and of course anxiety and low mood, are the order of the day..

The remaining verses too are quite understandable... It is far too soon to collect your thoughts and start to think more clearly, positively and systematically... All the fears, doubts and uncertainties are also to be expected.. having them does not mean or make you weak.. I feel that you will eventually be able to cope much more adaptively than you are able at the moment... The other thing of course, is that there should be professional help around to support not only you, but your hubby too..... Fingers crossed and wishing you and all those you love much calm and all good things.......... Neville

[Onlyme]

Thank you Neville for your thoughtful and kindness and understand words. I agree with what your saying. And hopefully one day soon. Everything will calm down a bit for us both.

[Neville]

It is never plain sailing, but the ride will hopefully get easier.. like I said fingers crossed.. N

[Onlyme]

Cheers Neville, life is like that a rollercoaster. Not always a great ride.

[Neville]

how very apt and true....