Inside My Head... My Demons Are Playing Up

My demons

are playing up today

inside my head

I just can't keep them

under control

the visions

inside

my head

are scream out

at me

loud and proud

reminders of the past

still haunting me

to this very day.

I had to endure

and dealt with

as a child

growing up

Then going

to counselling

and therapy

but still, I am

having problems

at times deal

with all this shite

As an adult now.

People blaming me

telling me off

calling me names

and so forth with

The beatings

getting suffocated

being sex abuse

the nightmares

and the

overwhelming dread

let alone the evilness

of it all towards me

peeing my pants

in the dark

as all hell

breaks loose.

I am living in my

present-day incubus

again inside

my mind's eye

and head

let alone heart

I try to control it

and keep it hidden

from sight.

and act as thou

everything

is really okay

on the outside.

Really i am

in a state

with

a mask to cover

it up

all

my fears and woes

and emotions

are shaking and

in distraught

inside my head

my heart

and let alone

my body.