Realization Dawning Of Something....

He drank whiskey and beer

to make

himself

feel

so-called

better.

To

make him

feel numb

and

more

of a man

to himself!

But

really

he was in pain

that he felt

deep inside.

He kept it

all

quite and

to 

himself

his woes

and problems

and that is

what

he felt deep inside

and out.

But most days

After

everyone

had gone to bed.

He would 

sneak

into the

living room

and drank

himself to death.

Or so he would

wish.

It would do

to him.

And eventually

he did

get

his own

way.

He eventually died.

He felt

useless

a waste of space

and so unloved.

He was

abused

by his

own mother

A f****r

of a mother

she was.

I can tell

you.

She was selfish,

mean

and nasty.

She really was

a brute

at times.

This is my

grandmother

and father.

I am talking

about here.

I feel sorry

for my father

he is long gone.

But it makes

me see and

realize. He

was not all

bad.

Neither was

she.

My grandma.

She was

hated by

her stepmother.

And her own

the mother from birth.

I never

found out

what happened

to her properly.

Around in circles

Life is a badass.

But you make the

best of what you

have.

Until

the very

day you

pass.

Or in my

case

you at

least do try!

Reviews

[Neville]

Not everyone has an ideal life for sure, some of us get dealt a raw deal from very early on... how one deals with it depends on many factors and the availability of supports.....an intriguing title and an emotionally charged poem for sure........ Neville

[Onlyme]

I do agree with you Neville, as you said. it depends on many factor and the availabilty of support. To overcome and deal with life in general at time.

[Neville]

I hope your's is good now, it sounds like you have had quite a journey and come a long way to date...... Neville

[Onlyme]

I am slowly getting their Neville. As are other humans on this planet called earth. Taking each new day as it comes. Best way to deal with life in general. But thank you for asking.

[Neville]

Good to hear you try and maintain such a positive attitude........ N

[Onlyme]

Not always easy but has to be done. :)

[Neville]

I agree entirely.....