F..k You Mum & DaD!

To be a child and not have love

affection and a caring way

does destroy the heart and soul

and leave the spirit broken

I for one can relate

and truly understand

the pain, the sorrow

discomfort and hurt

Sometimes. It is best

to be alone for a while

and heal those wounds alone

Sometimes, It is best

to shut out the world from

behind that front

door.

Sometimes, It is best

to cry alone

and truly feel your pain

from inside.

And to just let it out.

Sometimes. I need, want

a hug or just someone to care.

But inside and out

I AM S**T SCARED TO TRUST AGAIN.

OH GOD, WHY DID YOU FORSAKE ME!

And leave me on this planet to die all

alone. Am I such a bad person.

That you truly hated me.

So made me be born

just to please your spit

to some drunk and druggie

who never give a s**t.

But I battled with my demons

on and off for years.

I never gave up on Me

So f**k you!

MUM & DAD!

Reviews

[Riddhi]

I can understand how it feels..May be it feels so bad what I can never think of..But my dad is nothing different so I can understand some of your pain..I can understand how it feels when you are a child and on seeing your friend's family you wonder why you can also not have one like them...Because I am also the victim who was raised without the bonding and love of a family..I always had just my mom..She was not just my mom..She was my dad also and for me she was only my family..Your expressed your emotions well..Like you sometimes I also used to think when my mom and dad used to continuosly fight and I had exams the next day..I used to spend entire night by locking myself in washroom..Because I used to know that if I will go out of there....I won't be able to sleep or study...The difference is that you underwent all such things and I am undergoing all these things...
Take care...

[Onlyme]

Thanks for relating Riddhi, and so sorry for your own suffering. I do hope you find comfort and safety in your mothers arms. As she sounds good. Your mum.

[Riddhi]

She is actually nice...I hope that you can forget all those old bad memories...

[barleygirl]

Your words sound so powerfully stated that I suspect this is your true story. If so, I’m sorry for this longterm hurt in your life. I have experienced the same, being regularly raped & beaten for years in my childhood. I’m old now & totally healed. I try to encourage someone feeling this way, as stated in your poem, becuz surviving is something to be proud of . . . you will get to a point where you are so much better than you would’ve been without this hurtful treatment. It may not feel like it for many years, but the healing does come when we least expect it. Your poem pours out such pain in an intense & intelligent way. This isn’t just whining or dumping. This is an artful expression of how bad it can feel. Forget about people who say you should be able to get over it. You are definitely a fighter & a survivor. I’ve always wanted to say what you say in your title, but I could not stop myself from being respectful. I’ve always wondered how it would feel to write a poem with a title like this . . . I just can’t get my arms around it, tho (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Ariana Omnomnom]

My whole life I had an unstable and toxic relationship with my father. He would call me all the bad names under the sun that he could think of. Names which you should never call your child, let alone your daughter. He told me he never wanted me, he disowned me on multiple occasions, treated me like a disposable object that he owned, then at the end of the day he would come to me and try to act like friends and wondered why I never wanted to be around him and was always in a bad mood. He never accepted me for what I am and was and has always tried to fit me into a mold I simply don't belong in. Try fitting a sphere in a cd slot. All I've ever wanted was to be loved and accepted by him but all I've been met with was conditional love and hurtful words. There's no convincing someone as headstrong as he is, trust me I've done all in my power to try, we get along better now but he still doesn't get it. Surprisingly I've never sworn at him, never gave him the finger, never done anything in spite of him. I've fought back verbally to stand my ground, and physically when I needed to, but I've never gone out of my was to disrespect him. Yet the first thing he says about me when he's mad is how disrespectful I am. What I've been left with is a void so big that nothing else fills it except his true unconditional love and acceptance. I doubt I will ever get it and I'm worried I will forever be broken. I wish I could just scream a big f**k you to him but deep down I know I never will because I still love him regardless of what he's put me through and that even though he treats me in the absolute lowest regard he's always been a perfect husband to my mom and an astounding father to my sister and I do truly respect him for that. It's hard to live with such big conflicting emotions in my heart. As much as I want to relate to this poem, and as much as I have a right to, I don't think I ever truly will.

It's a great expression of emotion and a powerful piece however and I like it a lot. I think I will write a poem about my experiences soon now that I've been inspired by this.

[Chris Shaw]

Much anger and rightly so. Expressed well in your lines. They feel raw.These children should never let themselves be defined by what their parents did . They should rise up and face the challenges and know that they have done it on their own, and be damn proud of themselves and every little thing they achieve. Stiring words Dee.

[Onlyme]

Thank you Chris, for your thoughts. :)

[00000000000000000000000..]

Wow, a total depth of lines I can relate to! You put gust in this Dee. It sucks having to go before all you said many doors have open and closed all within that state to be and no1 knows that life nor shoes to fill when flee. I am not sure one can say I am still standing or say I am strong. To damn much broken that should never been. But what can one say?

[Onlyme]

Thank you Jon, Saldy life is twist and sick. And so are some people on this land as well. But thank you for your thoughts and comments Jon.

[0000000000000000000000000000]

Your welcome Dee

[Crowley]

I guess we don't have that choice when we are born, and so many bad parents have had such impact on their ids lives. But, when we get on and find a way to like ourselves and understand the beauty of being alive despite the past, its a new start, and no one can take that away form you but you. Great piece and very thought provoking.

[Onlyme]

Thanks Crowley, for your thoughts and comments.

[KeeD]

This poem is hard to digest because the content is so raw and real. It echoes the hurt and people who've been in the same place can relate. It reflects a cry of help that I and so many others might need to vent out, keep writing from your heart. You deserved better but you definitely made the best of the worst situation and came out a strong and creative individual. Hope only brilliant things occur in your life now because you were born for greater things. Here's to looking up and forward to the future and being the best you.

[Onlyme]

Aw, KeeD what a wonderful heart and person you are in general. Massive big hug right towards you. Hope you accept it. You made my day. Bless your wonderful open heart. Sometimes. I think to myself. Should I really write my feelings online. And then I think. To hell with it. I am speaking out. Only get one chance to live life to the full. And now is my time. Feed up sitting back. And taking crap. Simple as that. I am being Me ... for me now.

[KeeD]

Power to you Dee, cheers for being you! you're a force to be reckoned with, you wear your heart on your sleeve and seem truly strong, a warrior! World needs more people like you, kudos to being you.

[Onlyme]

Thanks KeeD. I am just me. Far from perfect. Just ordinary down to earth me. But thank you for your kindness. Really appreciated and took on board. Bless you KeeD.

[Fatima]

The anaphora really emphasises your words, loads of emotions going on. Really like this one !

[Onlyme]

Thanks Fatima. Makes it speak volumes. And for your thoughts.