Battles Within

Tonight I can't escape the chaotic thoughts inside. Choices cant be erased- in permanent marker we write.

Darkness sometimes dims my light.
I'm not as weak nor naive as I once was but I feel as though I'm drowning tonight.

Giving up is not an option . So no matter what I face
....I'll always choose to stay and fight.
#light&dark
#battleswithin

Reviews

[Chris Shaw]

Battles within and such a struggle to fight for the light at the end of the tunnel when you are stuck in its middle. It helps if you have been in this position before and you know with time, the darkness will give way to light. Relatable poetry Christa.

Chris

[Laconic Meraki]

Yes...
I made it out of the darkness I thought I'd never make it out.. But by keeping hope alive & seeking the light ... I made it out.

I only visit now.
I won't allow myself to STAY.

[Coyote Poetry]

Our hardest struggle is mental. Making decisions and thinking things out. Make our mind bleed and we know. We must decide what we want. Powerful and strong thoughts shared dear Laconic.
Coyote

[Tepo]

A difficult battle to win
Those within
Enjoyed this fight
You felt like drowning but giving up wasn't an option
Far from weak or naive
You are getting stronger
Only problem there could be
The darkness likes that
1st I've read of you
Nicely done

[Laconic Meraki]

Thank you for reading.
And you are right about that.

[Olivia Danielle]

We never truly know what someone else is dealing with, sometimes they can look fine but be battling something difficult on the inside. I loved the stanza "I'll always choose to stay and fight", because it's inspires others to never give up even though it may be very dark and strenuous. Very good write!

[Laconic Meraki]

Thank you.
I always try to put a line of hope in my writings that seem dark. If you loose hope you loose everything.

[Lorry]

I could say I know how you felt on reading this, but I think its more truthful to say I can relate to it than know anothers mind.
I can relate to my own confusion when told I was having a panic attack, as I thought they were immediate and in your face like a freight train, but it was the slow burn that confused me and probably led to the panic attack developing.
It started slowly with a "what will I do?" thought and slowly built until thoughts were screaming for attention and being unable to hold any one of them long enough to think.
Then the problem breathing started and it felt like I was 20 miles into a marathon, despite being still, in body.
You are right though with your ending. I think I was actually offended at the thought I was struggling to cope and that made me all the more determined to beat it.
Thankfully a change of scene to the country helped me no end and I'm so grateful for thst, but I'd be lying if I said I didn't feel it stir now and sgain.
I think it was Pink Floyd who said it best, the trick is to keep breathing... Sounds easy if you say it quick enough 😀
You WILL get there and you will feel the light again.
The darkness sometimes dims my light is a standout line and lets us know that you have the power in you to escape its grasp.

Lorry.

[Laconic Meraki]

I want to give a glimmer of hope for people with suicidal thoughts/depression-anxiety/addiction. read moreI want to give a glimmer of hope for people with suicidal thoughts/depression-anxiety/addiction.
That it is possible to make it out of the dark place.

That just because it may feel as though they are alone in this world with no-one who REALLY understands them...
That is not the case.
It's never too late to emerge to the surface and create a new life.

[Laconic Meraki]

I am also a scorpio. I'm not sure where you stand in your beliefs about zodiac signs .
But I read into it( because I wanted to know what was wrong with me and to understand why I feel things so intensely. )

It enlightened me on some things. It made sense to me. Although , I don't beleive everything I read lol.

[Laconic Meraki]

I hope that you don't have anymore panic attacks. They are scary and VERY REAL.

#keepHopeAlive.

[Lorry]

No, no more attacks, touch wood and a little bit of a pessimist on star signs, but only to balance out that my sister is banging on about it.I tell people my star sign is pyrex and that I was a test tube baby, but am a cancer. I was born on the middle day of the year though, which my sis thinks is a sign of something. My mum said it was a sign I was a pain back then too and too lazy to arrive on time. I think I was a difficult birth 😀

[Laconic Meraki]

Oh goodness. I almost died when I was born so I feel that. 🤷

[John Alexander McFadyen]

I can almost feel the deflated sighs in this very downbeat piece with such a sad tenor but a steely and determined conclusion.

[Laconic Meraki]

YES.

But, I only visit that "darkness" now.
I won't allow myself to stay.read moreYES.

But, I only visit that "darkness" now.
I won't allow myself to stay.
"The Sun Will Rise and I will Try Again". 💜🙏💪🤞

[John Alexander McFadyen]

That is good.

[Laconic Meraki]

The darkness for me is my paradise - my vice.