Another Goodbye

as I read this letter
my heart starts to ache
and my eyes to tear
to lose something so precious and dear
not through the phone but
a letter online

I read your words and
can't believe they're true
can't believe what's actually
right in front of me

one tear after another
run down my cheek and land
silently on my jeans
not a sound is heard in the room
other than the ticking of the clock
but if you were to look at my face
you'd see the tears just streaming down
and the heart break written all over my face
you'd watch my body shake and tremble with silent sobs

then when I get to your
"goodbye...the book is closed"
my heart just shatters and feels
as if it's been ripped out
I'm so sensetive have such a tender heart
that I cry when strangers do for I feel their pain
as if it was my very own and now
to feel and have this done to me
is beyond any description I can possibly make
it just hurts oh so very much
I just can't put them into words
something so immensely felt
I don't know if you can

I've been hurt before and
I thought that it was that
one time in which everyone experiences their huge heartache
but that was nothing compared to how I feel
I've lost not only my lover and life partner
I've lost my other half my best friend the one that completed me
I'm lost and stumbling in the dark
when you're blind you count on your other senses to help you
but you were the better half of those senses and
without you I am not functioning
so I'll just wait
don't know what for
but I will all the same

I don't want to lose you as my love that's for sure
but your friendship means much more to me than that
a hole in the heart
a lost limb
I don't know
there's not an accurate discription out there anywhere
to describe what it feels like without you