A(part) of Me

 Sometimes I get this feeling of "Loss". 

Panic strikes through my soul. 

Every organ in my body aches. 

I hear silence in my head. 

And the link seems to be slowly fading. 

I feel as if I am going to be "left". 

A part of me wants to leave. 

And suddenly I become. 

Angry. 

How could you "

Want" to leave me? 

Is it unfair to want to be one?

 Spiritually.

 If not physically. 

I cant imagine losing a part of me,

 I remember how it was. 

When I was incomplete.

 You may have been content,

 with the half of me that you were. 

But I was the least of who I was. 

Does that sound fair? 

It hurts you to be one. 

It hurts me to be two. 

I know I need you, 

but the fear of dependency

 weakens us. 

Where do we find a middle. 

Where you and I can be happy being one. 

 Nothing comes easy. 

Do you not agree? 

I need to have you, part of me,

 to see hope in the dark spaces

 between my life and living. 

I need to have you, part of me, 

to have faith in my belief.  

You know what IS unfair?

That you are!

The better part of me.