Letter to Where?

I wrote a few letters.

 I can't seem to get them out the door. 

Does he care that I have stopped? 

Does he even notice?

 Does he want me to continue? 

I wouldn't know. 

I still write him, I will for the next few years..

.but he will never know.

Letters of April will never come..

 Even in May..

will they stay,

 I apologize.

 If you feel I left or stopped caring. 

But shall you know... 

The day you or I walk into each others door..

 Those letters will be there.. 

All for you.. 

To never read.

 All those years, you were all I thought about.

All I wanted.

 .. still loved and cared for.

 All those years you were not there..

 I was.

 Even when you did not care or love me. 

You will eventually see. 

I wrote letters that still are here... 

You will never know,

they will never get there.