Wanted to fall

A girl who once felt a bit of perfection before completely falling.

Before three months ago
I had a shield that I never let down
the shield protected me from falling
falling for those who only asked for sex or supermodels

and most of all falling in love is what I protected myself

no emotions

no talk
I see them all the same
All of them talk, bang, and run
I didn't fall for any of it
Until one day
a typical day at home
His words appeared so inviting
I didn't believe so quickly
there were still chances of him running
hours and days went by
He didn't run

He only got closer
the first sight of him
I let my shield slip
having so much in common
falling for his words and his perfection
I thought I was stronger
I became in awe of him as hours and days passed
Having the taste of flesh for the first time
I lost control of my desires
my blood boiled for more
boiled for his touch
He had my control
He fed my desires
I only wanted more
only from him
only his body and touch is what I dreamt of
being shy or having insecurities were no longer part of me anymore
I truly felt like a sunflower
Walking with a smile and no care in the world
He was my sun that I let soak through my skin
soak through my veins
Until one day
It all ended

within seconds
everything came back
anger
tears
betrayal
fear
and disappointment
All what I hoped I would never feel again
I thought I was stronger
I failed
What hurts the most
is that I wanted to fall for him

Author's Note

Your reviews are really appreciated! Thank you! Small or big improvement in my writing is where I aim :)

Reviews

[Sami Khalil]

"I truly felt like a sunflower
Walking with a smile and no care in the world
He was my sun that I let soak through my skin
soak through my veins
Until one day
It all ended

within seconds
everything came back
anger
tears
betrayal
fear
and disappointment"

Bittersweet moments of love define so many things. I like the analogy you use in this wonderful poem too...:)......

[Mary Ochoa]

Thank you Sami! I'm glad you were pleased with this poem. Also, I'm glad you also pointed out the analogy I used in this poem :)

[Sami Khalil]

Yep. You are welcome...:)...........

[A. Amos]

This is such an honest write, felt like you're sharing your soul, feelings and emotions. What I like in your write you always beat your age, above words require a wisdom of life to understand the people. Truly great work and the world need to see such a beautiful piece of art, as many will relate or learn from this read. Simply amazing!

[Mary Ochoa]

Thank you so much for a beautiful review. Your words are always so motivating and inspiring. Especially your work. It feels amazing to know that I'm learning to write out my feelings and emotions. Relate and learn is my goal when I write for the audience:)

[A. Amos]

You're most welcome my dear

[Travis Gibson (poetic h..]

Heart wrenching words... Most of us stand in these shoes at some point. This is the ugly side of "falling" for someone, your emotions are tangible in this piece.

[Mary Ochoa]

Yes I do agree. It's unfortunate but it can just make us a stronger and wiser person. Thank you for reading! :)