Autumn in Beirut

Please bear with the depressive poetry! These gloomy poems depict something I had gone through a while ago, and it's only lately that I've found the time and place to share them with people.

 

Kicking through the leaves

As I stroll back home

Why all this defeat?

Raging like a storm

It's funny how

Every time

My life decides to fall apart

I look around,

The wilted leaves

Appear like knives

Into my heart

 

I'm still not home

 

Lost

Where do I belong—if not to you?

Floating by, like a ghost

On the autumn sunlight

No longer worthy

Of its magic name

For the beams of sun

That used to color me in gold

And caress my skin

Like the warmth of your hand

And the heat of your breath

Are now dewdrops across

A grey waterfall

A tarnished sheet of gold

So faded, washed out

Tainted

Colorless

Pitiful—unreal

Purposeless

It’s a shame

 

This is every autumn in Beirut

And now I'll spend it far away from you

This time the miles are feeling more concrete

And all the reasons that I have are real

At least I got a chance to have some fun

And take a swim beneath the gilded sun

Before the skies of pleasure turned to dust

Everything that made me smile is lost

 

Saying good-bye to summertime

Like waving to a drifting sailboat

Floating away towards the sun

All I have are cold October tears

To touch my cheeks instead of your lips

Or your fingertips

 

This is autumn in the same Beirut

Things may change

But they're still the same

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Reviews

[...]

. it's good to know this phase is over for you ... i hope that it's over for me too ... there's a lot to let go off sometimes ... and almost nothing to hold on to ... this is extremely poignant writing ... an absence that is mourned each moment ...

[Tai Chi Italy]

This is great poetry dealing with lost lovers that is totally entwined within nature itself, just as love is. It flowed like a conscious stream....good to read you, with a smile fromTai

[Emily Elizabeth]

This is stunning! You've taken your emotions, encompassed them with memories to deepen their meaning and created a beautiful delicate poem out of them, one fragile and tender under the weight of feelings of loss and desire. There is a strong sense of time here.
A lovely romantic piece. You have a gorgeous way of writing and are truly talented. Thanks for sharing!