3:00AM - December 21st, 2014

I am sad. I am miserable. I am lonely.

I promised myself to never be here again, but here I am.

It’s 3:00AM and I’m pushing you away.

I’m looking for attention in all the wrong places.

I’m crying, God I am crying out for you.

But I don’t want you to know.

I just want you to say it’s ok and that you love me,

Not that I can hit you up when I need you most.

I need love I need affection I need attention I need YOUYOUYOUYOUYOUYOU.

My limbs hurt my eyeballs ache my hands are shaking my stomach is turning.

What the hell am I supposed to do?

It scares me to think that my mind always ends up in the same place.

You can end it all.

It’s all in your hands.

And well, I suppose that it is. 

Reviews

[Alessander]

I thought the YOUYOUYOUYOUYOU really conveyed the desperate urgency and pathological yearning, with all it's effects.

It's very raw.

[Gee]

Really enjoyed the simplicity and the raw emotion.Your own addiction,not to be done without.

[Olivia Nolte]

Thank you so much! :-)

[Gee]

My pleasure.

[ANTO]

Im reviewing this soon after it was written - its more than fresh (not the US term) though - its raw.

I had considered this overkill
"I need love I need affection I need attention I need YOUYOUYOUYOUYOUYOU." but on re-reading Im now concluding that it is the best line.

You tell it like it is
I applaud you

[Olivia Nolte]

Thank you! I wrote this rather quickly, so it certainly isn't my best work. But thank you so much for the positive feedback! :-)