sometimesA Poem by oli the outcastthings arent always what they seem‘things arent always what they seem.’ i think this is true. because sometimes i feel things that arent there. like when someone touches me sometimes its not skin pressing skin, its bugs crawling all over me. sometimes covering myself in layer upon layer is less about hiding myself from others eyes, and more about not wanting to see more of myself than i have to. sometimes wearing a lot of makeup is less about trying to make myself pretty to others, and more about not wanting to see the imperfection underneath. sometimes the monster under the bed is a lot less fangs and claws, and more like looking in the mirror. sometimes breathing in is less like oxygen, and more like water, and everyday is like breathing in oceans. sometimes hurting myself is less the pain of drawing blood, and more of an attempt to cut myself out of my skin, because i am suffocating in it. sometimes letting myself be in pain is more about trying to remember feelings besides anger or sadness. sometimes listening to music with screaming is something i have to do because god d****t no one will listen to me until i am screaming as well sometimes my music being so loud is not about disturbing anyone but trying to block everyone out. i guess things arent always what they seem.© 2014 oli the outcast |
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Added on March 9, 2014 Last Updated on March 9, 2014 Tags: depression, self harm, self mutilation, sadness, mental problems Authoroli the outcastCanadaAboutI like writing. from hours of work, to a second of inspiration, a spark that starts a forest fire, or only lights a single candle. I like to write, and I hope you like what I write. more..Writing
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