Leaving.

I am about to take my most ambotious adventure yet. Wednesday i am taking a sweet journey to LA, i don't know what to expect and a friend just sugested i should walk... since i now realise i have no real option then that is it. i'm excited and scared... i

The day's have reached their peak again. The sun will soon melt the remaining snow and i will have been gone before the grass is green, nothing is ever going to be the same. I'm leaving this dead-end town and i will do my best not to turn around. Through the days and through the nights a long way i have to go further then i'd ever know, one day under the lights. The reality of uncertainty is beautifully unseen to me. My worst fear is die without life today i could die without tomorrow because i'm dreaming today and learning the best and worst way. If i stay i'll never know what i found out when i go, becoming me is something unreal for others to see. Packing my bags it's time to go a sense of fear will always be shown, because today holds something unkown.

 

Dissapear from time and space drifting through the new found waste.

I am not scared of death,

I no longer fear,

Leaving brings a thought of tears.

I will not cry, i am me and tomorrow i can say that i've live you'll see.

 

Knowing that this is real means so much to me, i know that there is something i've never felt before out there waiting to capture me and hold only for a moment before litting me go, a moment suspended in time, in time will be worth it. The journey i have before me is the road less travelled. I seek comfort in that and know that it's worth while rewarding me with the disregaurd and the care free lifestyle knowing there's better out there for me.

 

My whispers become a scream, my reality jumps from a dream.

Me leaving you behind creates a world that starts to unwind.

Regreting this i will not, it's something i just can't get my head around.

I will be fine even if i'm not, I will be okay.

Don't worry tomorrow holds a dream for you procratination has been the dread of me but now all can see what i'm going to be. Me.

Author's Note

Mmmm there's more to come, i haven't left yet, it's like a story blog of what i feel whats happening around me and what is to come.