The Loss of Nothing

An attempted poem about my first relationship.

What did I lose when I left you?

The first time, I lost my sense of dignity and pride

I felt impure and disgusted with myself

For, giving into your petty pleas

I should have rejected you,

Ignored your flattery and said no!

But I didn't, and here I am

Filled with regret

Running round and round

In a vicious circle with no end.

What was I thinking?

Was I even thinking?! Probably not...

I gave you the benefit of the doubt

And oh was I wrong

Terribly wrong.

I explained to you,

"You already have two strikes and two fouls."

Remember...the third time Doesn't always make a charm.

You said you would "change"

But I had a feeling you were spewing lies

That line was tossed around

Just like loose change from someone's pocket

Like the last time and the time before that

Was there a difference?

I asked why you choked me

It happened one too many times

Your reply was, "It was a reflex!"

No denial, only an excuse,

No apology, just a shrug.

We finally split...permanently.

You swore I was your last relationship,

But so far you've had another ex

And a current girlfriend.

That makes two.

I'm tempted to say, "Wait till she knows."

But I don't, you are not worth it

And she'll figure it out

If she's smart...

I have already moved on

And you are no longer important

I always questioned the depth

Of the relationship we shared

And I came to a realization.

What did I lose when I left you?

I lost nothing.

Author's Note

Poetry is not my strongest point when it comes to literature, but I at least receive and A for effort....wrote this on a whim from my personal experience, and my cellphone doesn't check grammar, so I will apologize in advance. Sorry!