Blooming Gravestones

The loss of love is devastating so I wanted to convey that feeling of hopelessness and heartfelt pain from such a bitter loss.

You say one thing
Yet you mean another
I know it won’t be long
Before you find another
I feel like I’m being smothered
Dragged under by
All these doubts
Raising hell
Inside the murky
Depths of my head
All the things I’ve said
Filling me with dread
Spreading like wild fire
All my regrets burning holes
Into my very soul
The past taking it’s toll
My every thought
Drowning me in my remorse
Wishing there was some way
I could recourse
Even though I know
You were the source
Your deception
The corrosion
That tore us apart
Still struggle to accept
Coming to terms
With the fact that you and I
Could fall so far off track
The death of our love
Not an easy pill to swallow
No matter how hallow
I am inside
This broken heart
I nurse the worst curse 
You say one thing
Yet you mean another
I feel like I’m being torn
Each callous word
Tearing me to shreds
I never thought our love
Could have become worn
Yet I look around at all the dead
Our makeshift war zone
Covering everything in sight  
And I wish that I could atone
For all that went awry
All our fights
And petty differences
Seeming so meaningless now
I hate that things had to end like this
Bloodshed poisoning all we once had
And I'm filled with regret
I don’t want every thought
Consumed with bitterness
And I'm so tired of the bombs
Going off in the distance
I just wish we could stop
And hit rewind
To a time before I knew
You were a swine
But the only blooms
That grow among this wreckage
Are the tombs
Sprouting in the rubble
The only thing left
The gravestones with our names
So on days like today
When the sky looks gray
I can't help feeling flayed
Struggling to keep
These emotions bottled up
As I mourn the death
Of something once prized
Of someone once loved