Seasons come and go...

Atheana Dokuro... Shelby Nani.....

                           What can I say I like remembering every laugh...we shared. The seasons pass  and I still feel alone. Walking along the paths feeling sorry for everything I did wrong. Trying to see the truth somehow Icannot escape the feeling of guilt... feeling the dreams, but yet they're so far away. I hide form each tear and see the past lay beofre my eyes. I can see you calling my name. Waiting for me to come with you. The memories we shared seem now... soo far away. I cry and see the truth behind your tears then I hear your crys even when you are far away. WHY can't I hide from the darkness anymore? I feel so alone without our friendship being alive. I wouldcry every sinlge day if you died you knowthat but, I want to hide from the pain.. that i have when i think about the past. I lived a life with only darkness... Seasons pass and I still cry here when I hear you cry. I want to hide from the sadness but, the darkness holds me back. Light always will be important... but, without some darkness I'd be blinded by everything. The pages turn and I still see your face why I can't crying here i don't know anyore... why do i chose to live (because people will miss me alot). The light shows my true feelings from the cherryblossomed light. maybe i should stop and and forget the past. The seasons pass and I hear you calling me once again. I'm not emo or happy just feeling less and less alive. I have fallen and can't get up. From the light I can see you smiling with his hand holding your hand. Seasons pass and I see my destiny to live for a while then die when i want to. Please forgive for all the things i've done wrong. I don't desirve you as much as she does. Seasons pass and i see that i will grow up too. As seasons come and go I feel alone again even though you're right with me standing here. I will grow up and find my own reason for being alive. Will I still see the past laughs and happiness? I'll miss you and you'd miss me too. I can see you standing there waiting for me. I feel happy when i see you or when i think of you. 

Author's Note

I always feel this way but, by telling people I am happy (when I'm not) they leave me be and i like it that way...