Suicide Is A Lie

Kurt: Listen to me when when I say this- Courtney: And DON'T listen to him when he says this because this is a f*****g lie. Kurt: Sometimes its better to burn out than fade away

I think about it.

All day.

I think about how it would feel to tie

the noose around my neck and let

myself hang from the sky.

I think about how the blade would feel

as it traveled along my wrists up to my shoulder.

But I can't kill myself.

Because I'm not that weak.

My enemies say that if I died,

people would be happy.

That the world would be free

and a joyous place to be.

But my friends slap me for thinking like that.

They tell me to wake up from this sick fantasy

my enemies have made me live in.

They tell me I am worth something.

They tell me suicide is a lie. 

That I will regret as my soul makes

its sad and long journey to hell.

That everyone will live in misery

once I disappear. 

So I don't try to end my life.

I don't try to slit my wrists anymore.

I just sit there, and keep my pain

locked inside my used and broken

heart. 

Author's Note

Suicide is bull shit. It doesn't make anyone happier. People love you. You may not think that, but people do.

Reviews

[Umar Hassan]

Suicide is selfish, a surrender to the suffering ego. It is also abusive, long term, to those who love you. And broken hearts are more than metaphors. Keep writing and exploring.

[brenda]

true thats how people should think sometimes why kill yourself there is also somethig tht i got from a movie saying something like this" if you kill yourself , what good would come out of it? only a funeral and then you are buried in the ground and that is all you leave." but love the poem !:) and your friends are amazing ! everyone is worth somthing !:)

[Ripple of Aqua]

So very true, and you have wonderful friends. This is so perfectly set up and the whole idea is perfect, several people don't realize what you already have; to suck it up and move on in life, because those people spew lies. Good for you.

[Alicia Hirshey]

This was sad, yet I can relate to it. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't feel at one point that everything would be better for everyone if I was gone but then I look at my two amazing sons and the give me the will to make it through another day. So like you said i just sit there and keep my pain locked inside my used and broken heart. This poem reminds me of a quote that I was reading I don't remember who wrote it but it goes, "Nobody promised life would be easy, They just promised it would be worth it." Great write.

[Angie Diane♥&hea..]

This was a sad piece...my heart is breaking from reading it...but I like the point you made within this piece....it's the truth...because it hurts people when someone commits suicide...I lost someone to that...but I think you should write your pain out within words...don't listen to your enemies...because they don't deserve your company if they are like that...I agree with your friends not to kill yourself. Thanks for sharing.

[Starrbitt]

sad but true....I really felt the pain in this...you did really well
continue on writing

[Tasha]

This was heartfelt and sad. And very very true, just don't listen to those people they are insecure and want to take everyone else down with them. Keep on writing. Excellent job.
♥ Ta'Shandra

[Helpless]

good point, awesome concept to write about because of the deep reality it holds. nicely done

[SoulCrusader (Yas)]

A very heartfelt and sad poem, very moving indeed. 'I just sit there, and keep my pain locked inside my used and broken heart.' says it all perfectly!