Lost in thought

Sometimes I get lost… 
Waking up… I find myself
Caught in a morning dream…
Yes, wide awake, 
yet still I am off someplace far from here
Restless in an empty bed..
I just can’t find a way sometimes to get out of my head

While happily divorced, I do miss the close family thing
I ponder wish and dream.. 
Moring thoughts
That time past 
sit lost heavy on my chest..

I get lost…
Write them down
Guess that is what’s best…
I think that weight is best carried here….
Confined by the digital border of walls 
So So So easier it is
Than deep in my chest
Left echoing forever in my mind of empty hardwood halls

I fade away, lost in distant thought
Of old morning times completely lost
Echo they do.. 
the step are heard on the hardwood as Mr. Memory walks through
Walking in a rhythm 
A cadence 
the steps echo
The gentle sound of the constant taps 
Hypnotize me
The gentle steps of that walking Mr. Memory
I drift to an idea and time


We scramble making ready to take on the day…..
The kids are dressed, ready for school, and coffee is made….
Just as you like it hon… not one lump but two
It sits blissful, warm waiting only for you

We have our plans 
it is time to make ready and split; as life takes you away
We stand at the kitchen counter 
face to face passing that morning moment 
Where I get lost in you

I just enjoy your smile, and your stare as you start to drink
I watch the coffee kiss your lips
supported by the warm cup as in your body it sinks
I watch as you take it in… pause and enjoy your own moment with in
You do not know, I kissed your cup 
I bask in the moment of the idea I kissed you yet we never touched
And yet, you pause drinking it in….
Smile for a second as your day continues to begin

“Hey you…”, she says as I don’t answer or look away
“What!?!”, she ask noticing me looking dizzily
You don’t know, but moments like these, for me, life stops
how powerfully strong they are 

I smile and say,
I know it is stupid, and crazy to think and say….
But I was thinking I will miss you till I return later today
That is all I was thinking
That is all I wanted to say

We disappear fading in the day 
playing cowboy and cowgirl
Collecting our cows 
Rushing them to the car and fence them in
Entering the car, I look back for one last glance
And see you looking to
I pass my smile, 
Raise my hand 
pointy finger up 
as to tip my hat
Cuz I am a stupid kind of silly
In a stupid kind of way..
So no cool like that I’ll say
Just a stupid boy in crazy love 
Cuz I like it that way

Reviews

[McBear]

Deep,deep, very deep. I really liked it. Had such a meaningful meaning to it