I'm Sorry

yeah okay

You say it's all in my head

My depression

My anxiety

I'm getting help for it now

But that's because it got bad

Crying myself to sleep every night

Anxiety that would pop up out of nowhere

Panic attacks nearly every day

Is that all in my head?

When I have to leave class because I can't see

Because I'm hyperventilating

Because my heart felt like it had already exploded

Because if I'm in that room for another second I might die

Because I'm crying too much to focus

Because my brain is screaming at me

Because suddenly it feels like everyone in the room wants me dead

Because it feels like I'm gonna puke

And then pass out

When all of that happens

Is it just in my head?

You say I'm choosing to feel like this

You mean I'm CHOOSING to be too depressed to get out of bed for a week

To tell my friends

Sorry I have other plans

When I just couldn't bring myself to get up

That I'm choosing to think that I'd be better off dead than being a burden here

That all of that

Is just in my head?

You said before that you feel it too

So what

Now you just don't feel it?

You say that's not at all how it works

Then explain it to me

Because what you're saying isn't making much sense

I'm so confused

Then you stop talking

Was it something I said?

If it was

I didn't mean to upset you

It's just that what you were saying didn't really make sense to me

I'm sorry if I upset you

I'm sorry I bother you

I'm sorry if my talking to you is a bad thing

I'll stop if it is

Because I'm only dragging you down

I'm sorry for everything