I Don't Know

yeah okay

I wish you a happy birthday

You say thank you

And put on the fakest smile I've seen in my whole life

But later

I was standing in that spot

That one spot

The one I'm always at

I'm always there

You slow down

To the point where you almost stop

Not breaking eye contact

But then you leave again

Why did you slow down?

I know that you don't think of me

The way I think of you

But sometimes

You make it seem like you do

And it confuses me

Do you?

I know you don't

People say you do

But if you do

Talk to me

Say something

I want things to work out

And if you want to stay friends with your friends

Then I know it won't

They don't like it

They're against it

They say if you like someone from certain groups of friends

You'll be kicked out of the group

Those aren't friends

And you deserve so much better than that

Everyone does

But they're just like that

I heard you today

She asked you

Do you like girls?

You reply

No

Either you lied to them

Or multiple people are lying to me

And my face went red

The person sitting across from me told me so

And I proceeded to hide my face in my sweatshirt

I almost didn't hear your reply to her

Because I was scared of what you'd tell her

I was pretty sure you'd say no

But if you said yes

She would disown you

She'd stop talking to you

And you deserve better

Author's Note

So I deleted a bunch of stuff because I've kind of cut someone out of my life that most of them were about

Reviews

[Serendipity Planet]

it took me a while to read it and understand it , hope I did but I really love the flow of your words and how you describe the little moments , I felt lot of confusion which you described pretty well