Confusion

This is why I answer texts at 3 in the morning

We don't talk

I don't care that we don't talk

If you wanted to talk I'll talk

And then I'd probably care

Because I'm clingy

But you were there yesterday

Asking if I was okay

As I sat crying

You

You confuse me

I said the words

I'm gay

Suddenly

You're talking to me

Just small talk

But it's more than before

I walked by you in the hall

I smiled

I wanted to be a nice person

You smiled back

Then looked at your shoes

Still smiling

I wondered why you looked at your shoes

They're not that interesting

They're just shoes

Why did you look at them?

I think you just wanted to make sure they were tied

That's the only reason I can think of

And in class

You stare at me

I look around the room

And see you staring

You only stop staring

If I tilt my head

And show the fact that I see you

Then you look away

You're reportedly straight

But all of this

What

Why

So much confusion

I don't know what's going on in your brain

But I do know

If you are what people wonder

If you feel the way people ask

You're seriously out of my league

I'm literally trash

But you

You're better than me

By so much

I'm the messy stuff that fills a dumpster

I don't understand

Why someone like you

Would be caught dead 

With someone like me

I'm sure

I'm not worth your time

Your time should be spent with people

Who are at the same level as you

Some first class people

Who wouldn't go anywhere near the third class

I don't understand

Author's Note

yeah okay

Reviews

[Serendipity Planet]

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