back here again

not anything,

I miss you

When. You left the world 

A part of me died that day finding out 

No body was gonna come and save you

And now I feel trapped under you

Like a flightless bird who used to sore far with you for just those two weeks of knowing you

No one will understand this pain I’m enduring

They can’t understand

I was with you the night before and I will never get that last hug I was deprived of 

Its been a month and a half and I feel like I’m trapped in a burning house

The flames have died down and the smoke is rising up to the opened surface

No body said I would have known you for the rest of my life

But I wish you were still here

You understood my pain and I did yours

Ive been unmotivated by life

Laying down all day everyday like your lifeless body that morning you did what was done

No body said this won’t last forever but the pain gets easier

We talked about the clouds and the stars for hours not knowing which one of us would’ve ended up there,

But it was you in a blink of an eye, I was with you one second

Walking up the next to finding out this news 

Balling and screaming my head off to where I didn’t know where I was walking 

Why

Why does you leaving leave such a toll on my heart 

Tell me how it feels sitting up there, does it ever get lonely like it does down here

Ive lived without you but I wish I had gotten more time to know everything I didn’t get the time to 

You said you would catch me if I fall, and I hope your still looking over me as I have not felt your presence since the day I left LU.

Staying up with your every night when I got there to your last night on this atmosphere, 

--uhm,.. done. 

(uploading my old writing) 

SF