Seeing someone go

The numbness in my heart makes sense when the trivial of thoughts of seperation ,replacement and desolation sets in
The deep abyss fears of being taken over had taken over the assured heart which took years to belive what is its shall remain untouched but just then a swift air of new feeling and emotion gazed at it
When the warmth was drifted and distributed
The reason of her sooting smile was someone else joke but my mere actions
The fun and fair which i had wished was executed by someone who was feared by since the very first time she took away her aura
The feeings the moments was mine to enjoy and not theirs to witness but the guards down gave a gatepass and an entry to my hell but a heaven to my god so the devil slept and made peace with the fire in it making peace with her happiness residing in someone
She takes away her pain in denial more than the happiness i gave
The time limit of the vapours of joy are more than the pain i take away
I was suddenly standing face to face with fear i beheld since i held her
Someone did replace the love the efforts the feelings
The fear shouted at my face and dared me to watch her go JUST when the anchor of my heart held me back and softned my edges and calmed the fire with the ice cubes of love stored from the past years
It was not her but my demonic thoughts which could disrupt US but her assuring medication gave me the power to face it with a gentle smile which PUTS HER TO PEACE