She Is The Latest End....

 

She is the latest end, and now the newest standard

She is the one I must now love from afar, in memories, alone

Bittersweet loss that I will always remember and savour

And silently regret and rejoice in

She is the one I will base all others on now

The one I will compare the next ones to

The ones that want to love me and yearn for me

The ones that sob as they scramble for the door

She is now the model for all that I despair

She will be the one I cry for

She will be the one I compare them to

She will be the one I miss and wish had never happened

She will be the one that I lost and long to find again

Though I suspect I never will

I will cry while no-one sees me

I will pine when no-one hears me

I will yearn when I say nothing

I will burn when new ones come along

I will not be closer

Always a little further, always a bit more distant

And also much more darkly

“It has better to have loved and lost, than to have never lost before”*

I will always seek the answers, I will always look for more

How was She like the others?

How was She not at all?

How did She come to find me?

How did She make me fall?

And all that come before her

And all that follow soon

They have seen that side of me

Beneath the darkened moon

Now She shares the secrets

That we will keep inside

And they shall never flourish

They too shall pass aside

And now I am left here standing

With memories and scorn

The others that will follow

I shall someday mourn

I would love her again if She had me

I would take her in my heart

I would let her break it open

And tear it all apart

My heart is has no boundaries

As to the love that it can give

Instead it hardens and darkens

And closes like a door

Because She is no more

Because there are no more

She is the latest end

She is the end I fear

She is the one who empties me

She is the one who brings me tears

Now I shall not forget her

Now She is forever

Now She haunts me always

Because now, She has become NEVER

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

*Thanks to A.B. for the philosophical quote…quite appropriate in this current situation I am in…..

Reviews

[Kris Tate]

This one is very beautiful, It was very hard to narrow the choices down to three but this is the third one you need to enter. *hugs and kisses*

[Tessa Le Rouge]

the moment someone we care for becomes never, the standard for all challengers, it is a very difficult transition. it's hard, and i've been there and now that it, for lack of a better word, sucks. the best thing to do is just move on, leave them as just a memory, a bringer of good times and poisonous kisses. i feel your pain, and i am feeling this poem. good job. keep your head up! it only gets better as the road starts to unfold.

xoxo
Astoria