WATCHING YOU LEAVING!!!

A Poem by Nilesh Ratnam

To Watch You Leaving . . .

is such a pain,

it's jagged edges pears into my soul.

As a stake from the garden tears into the warm, dark earth.

To Watch You Leaving . . .

knowing all the while that never again will I fit myself,

warm with sleep, against your solid back.

Nor hear your steady breathing.

Or feel the beating of your heart.

To Watch You Leaving . . .

aware in every moment of day that

my dreams, my future; once tied with silken ribbons of yours, will never come to an end,

And the mornings once so silent and hopeful, as gazing at the mountains

and so gently awaiting forever -

as small pieces of my past.

To Watch You Leaving . . .

your heart a tight fist of anger

and your dry eyes betraying nothing of you.

I cry for both of us, my love,

because you will not be mine.

To Watch You Leaving . . .

is to know that I lost my place on this earth.

My station, My heart's home, That I will wander,

forever like a nomad.

Alone and afraid.

And in my troubled dreams watching you leave,

again and again.

For the balance of my days.

I still be your's, trying to be normal.

Trying to be together.

Forever and Ever!!!

To Watch You Leaving...

I still be the same what am I!!!