SurvivalA Story by Nikhil ChandwaniPain-worthy love storyI read
the messages she used to send me. It retained a weak aroma of my past. These
messages are all I am left with. Distorted by my tears. Blessed by her
existence. Nothing, enormously nothing I can do would bring her back.
Nothing can erase the past. Yet I am trying hard to stroke off these wounds.
Making swiftest of cuts. Unconsciously, I tried, only to get lost in the spider
web, of love and terror, of hurt and fear and the ever present danger of the
future. I bend onto them, trying to hunt down my solitudes, one after the
other. But they eluded me, like I am trying to grab burn in my fist. I resorted
to them. Lay all my trust. Lost in the mists of time, I am. As lost as my trust,
I am. Yet unaware, I tried to hold on while my tears fell thick and fast. Only
to empty myself within. It was all about vacant eyes and smothered sobs. A indication
of the worthlessness that lay before me. And my smothered existence. I lay
battered. With my opinion, coagulating into lumps of blood. My life slowly
ebbed away; every breath becoming a task to accomplish. Memories flashed in
front of my eyes. And they too lay there. Like naked corpses, mocking my survival,
celebrating the end, the End of my survival and the world’s victory. The victory
of evil and the ridicule of those who tried to stop them, unsuccessful. I
symbolize a lifetime of pain. Unknown to them. Sacred to me. There was hope for
me after all. My battered Soul, freed from the prison of mortality took in the
first breath of Freedom. Aboard the thought trail, I am. Undeterred by attendance.
Too dignified. They questioned my victory. She was
one of them. She heard
nothing but screams. Of her principles. Of my hate. I am the magician that
night. Her truth was revealed to me slowly, through the letters messages I had
received in my inbox. Her deception unfurled. Her words were deceptive. Wrapping
my soul into an abyss of nothingness. I am trying to break free from the velvet
shackles, my Soul begging for release. I asked for her help. She agreed. We
were at the extremities of the abyss. There would only be a Survivor. fraud,
was it? Deception, it was. Her survival meant my Death. So she chose what
mattered more. She was torn between the right and the wrong. But there
existed none. © 2012 Nikhil ChandwaniAuthor's Note
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StatsAuthorNikhil ChandwaniMaharashtra, Nagpur, IndiaAboutI am Nikhil Chandwani, author of "I wrote your name in the sky and yours and yours too" Besides writing, I am pursuing my engineering from VIT University, Vellore. more.. |