A foreigner

Wind dances with the ashes of my cigarettes
Blowing in memories, I wanted to forget
Strays of light fall on my skin
Silence before my thoughts break in
Pour another glass, watch magic forms
Within ice cubes, creating storms
Captivated by a maze within my eyes
Windows of my soul, show me what you hide
An avalanche of dreams, here they come
A peaceful race, I'm willing to run
Better check the cards, toss and let go
Depression? anxiety? PTSD? No
Toss the cards, one by one
Between the worlds of the certainty and oblivion
A foreigner, a traveler, call it what you want
I've been seeking answers for as long as I can count
Breathe, inhale, take another sip
A smile forms, defeating my lips
The answer has always been peace
abate curiosity, let go, your soul, release
Ironically the dance sparkles my wounds
We will meet again, defeating the rules
Numbed, forsaken with your presence
Darkness had no evidence
I am the mayhem, you aren't the salvation
Focus, fight all temptations
Break the chain of you thoughts
Hold yourself, breathe in your fights