What Lie Do I Tell You This Time?

What Lie Do I Tell You This Time?

A Poem by Elizabeth

In your Jeep the air conditioner blows grudgingly,

offering a thin breeze of lukewarm air.

We sit parked outside my building
because there is still a little time
and opening the door, stepping out into the sun
onto the pavement so hot I can feel it burning
through the thin soles of my cheap gold sandals
is a kind of tearing
like a knife to the skin every time we separate and I don’t know
when I’ll see you or hear your voice next.
Still, the healing power is remarkable.
We knit together so naturally I can barely see
the scars.
 
We had coffee in the shop where you first told me
you were getting married. Don’t
tell anyone, you said, Not even my parents know.
I didn’t. I went home
and wept to no one.
 
Today I wear the blue dress, the one
you complimented on your birthday
when I told you clumsily that I loved you.
I didn’t say love.
Was that my mistake?
You must not remember
because if you did you wouldn’t invite me
to come to supper at your place sometime
and I wouldn’t be asking myself
how to lie to you one more time.
 
Call me, you say. We’ll make plans.
I stare at the floor and nod, hoping
the week you are away with her will give me time
to create a plausible excuse.
 
How can I lie and lie to you?
Your eyes are always intent on mine,
yet you miss the meaning there,
like today when you thought I was going to cry,
but it was only the faint smell of onion
lingering on my fingers. You’re trying to make-up
for the time before
when the almost-tears were real
and you didn’t see them and I told you later.
 
Before we part I reach for you,
just your arm
because touching you is a compulsion.
You take my hand and squeeze it.
I don’t meet your eyes. The air conditioner gurgles
and our joined hands contract
like a heart.
I can feel it pumping something vital
through the body that is for a moment
yours and mine. Between us
something flows.

© 2009 Elizabeth


Author's Note

Elizabeth
Suggestions to improve this appreciated. i think it's lagging in the middle and needs some pruning.

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I don't really think it needs anything. Although I question the fact of it's being a poem. Then again, What do I know? I'm not a poet. Good job anyway. It's a great piece.

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Elizabeth
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I am a graduate student in Ohio working towards a master's degree in English, with a focus on critical theory and African and Middle Eastern Literature. I write poetry when I feel inspired, so it is k.. more..

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