Not fair...though I know life isn't fair. Nic told me that time and again.
But sometimes I wonder why something can't work out right at least once in a while.
Life can be amaZing one moment then the next it can drag u down to the lowest deepest depths of sadness and loneliness.
The more u give, of yourself in this world...the more hurt u get in return.
But I have so much love and happiness inside of me to share.
I can't not give it, that so isn't me.
But I pay for it in the end.
Why do I always lose..?
....all I want from this life is to live, really live.
And to love and be loved.
I don't need anything else.
Everything else can be destroyed tomorrow and I will survive.
I want to take in this wonderful world God gave us..
I want to treasure every little flower that springs up in the woods and the birds flying through the air.
I want to help an old lady carry her groceries to the car.
I want to be a shoulder for that person that feels their life becoming hopeless.
But it is hard...
sometimes.