Escape

Lie in bed.
Tears running down my face.
A hole in my chest, where you used to be.
A hole where i could once go.
I could go and be happy.
Smile, laugh, and not have a worry.
It was once me escape.
But now i can't escape it.
It consumes all of me.
Follows me like a deathly shadow.
A reminder of the stupidity.
Of the childish dream I clung to.
The dreams of being happy.
And having someone I could call my own.
Now i dream of an escape.
An escape of this pain.
A place i can go where i wont feel anything.
This is my dream now.
To not feel this pain.
To not cry
To not have to wish it never happened.
To not have to look you in the face everyday.
And know that i made the mistake.
The mistake of thinking you cared.
And now all I want is an escape.